Sunday, October 23, 2011

ice kitten

He was sitting on my chest, purring.
Purring over and over again:
You are mine.
And I knew from that moment on
That I was chained to my secrets

He wasn’t going to bite me
My paralysis was sufficient
To mollify him
Into a haphazard contentment
Where he warmed me with coldest ice.

He paws me like his plaything
And then seems to disappear into the air.
Creeping back again
His pounce and swat remind me that
Freedom isn’t guaranteed with second chances


Remember how you give
Remember how you pray
Remember how you live
And drive your demons away
[[I see your love is bold and underlined]]

Little children, you are from God and have overcome them,
for He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.
- 1 John 4:4

Saturday, October 22, 2011


You're the wedge between my heart and my mind
That keeps me from crushing myself
Under the weight of things I don't understand

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Colors in array

We danced blithely under laughing beams of light
A day of blue skies, soft breezes, and swaying grasses
We found our lives tangled seamlessly together
On account of the weather which we loved so desperately

Snow was a delight, rain a party and shadows brought on giggling
When we realized they were just quickly moving clouds.
The mist led to serious contemplation, soon overtaken by joy.
Even thunder befriended our meandering paths that day.

But like the sun, you slipped away (for no man halts the sunset)
I watched our colors fade and sink into a darkened line of trees.
No reason for tears, although they came all the same.
Nothing can be done about diminishing hours and growing distance.

Where chilly air once stilled my heart, I now feel only comfort
As my eyes adjust to darkness, no fear mars my vision.
For I am just as close to what we both saw in the sky
As when we gazed that direction together.

Although paths cease to cross when the world is dimmed,
I am content to remember the times I now miss.
A sunset cannot stop the light from existing
And melancholy night shall give way to triumphant morning.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

october morning

He rinsed the sky with brilliant color
And clothed the day in softest mist
He nudged the clouds to dance with the sun
Leaving me awestruck, delighted, kissed.

Sunday, October 2, 2011


Illusions of healing
Blocking out darkness
Shedding light abroad
What are emotions? 
Nothing more than 
Lying, convicting delusions 
And they applauded
My gentle beauty
Smiled kindly down
They didn’t know 
The hidden underworld 
Where I live 
Distance taught me
Resistance is futile
Perceptions never change
Why invite you 
Into nonsensical whirlpools 
You’d rather escape? 
Holding their hands
Guiding them forward
A mutual admiration
Bringing them closer 
To the hope 
Ghosts cannot claim 
Living above pain
A temporary fearlessness
What is discouragement?
Ignored encounters with 
The correlation between 
Salvation and love 

And through Him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth 
or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross. 
Col 1:20

Saturday, October 1, 2011


I am the fruit of my own gardening
Watered with the music of lonesomeness 
Nurtured by the shifting solidity of selftalk
Planted in a bed of rainbow chaos
Tart and bitter when raw
No lovelier when steamed
Falling apart when boiled
Glossing over when baked
Bring me to the fire
Where there I will disingetrate
I shrivel and am humbled
I shall cease to exist
As ashes I return
Finalized, romanticized, simplified
Now starting from the ground
I will let myself be grown
{and hope does not put us to shame}