Thursday, August 25, 2011

forgotten

[written June 18]

Memories hang in the air like a humidity I cannot escape.
Steps through dew-flecked grass trample lost stories.
The gnats forming vague clusters on the lawn
Are only thoughts hovering in the back of my mind.

The firefly that floats above my head reminds me of bright times
When sunset was the herald to peaceful rest.
Rocks like icebergs sunken into ground mark places
Where friendship kept my head above rushing waters of emotion.

Hidden fields of beauty appear as I venture father
Into what chills me, grabs me, and tangles my path.
Between scattered wildflowers and friendly trees, I stand
Knowing I would regret dreaming more than deciding to forget.

~

The fear of man lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is safe.
Pr 29:25

Saturday, August 13, 2011

my heart of blood and breath

Regret is poison
Pumping through my veins
Unwanted, yet unchecked

Anxiety is a web
Tangling over my lungs
Spun tightly of my fears

Attachment was my antidote
Curing me into confidence
Internalized, expected

Affection was my defense
Stilling my attackers’ conquest
An unchanging protection

[Reliance is a mask
Leaving me exposed, lost, breakable
Pulled from my eyes like a cover]

Remove the antidote, enhance the poison
And my blood hardly contains the oxygen
That it mockingly promises the rest of me.

Weaken my defenses, let them fortify their stronghold
And my breath cannot exist without disillusionment
That dictates and retards my consciousness.

Rejection cut deep into my vital channels,
Deeper yet into what I had seen as my survival
Deepest still into my heart of blood and breath.

Helplessness brought me to your unfailing love
Would that I had your heart to replace my own
And could let your love be the contents of my heart.

~

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.
- 1 Cor 13: 7, 8
{and hope does not put us to shame}