Maybe it's a case of post-regionals blues, or maybe it's the knowledge that I am graduating, or maybe it's just because I am a feeler... but I miss my friends. I miss you.
When we laugh so hard we cry
It's the love between you and I
It's actually pretty painful. I've been thinking about everybody I miss all day for the past two days.
I want to see your smile, hear your voice, listen to your thoughts.
I don't like missing you, but I can't say I mind having to miss you. Missing you makes me feel emotional, which I love.
Sometimes, I think I am in love with my emotions.
I know, I should be in love with God, not my emotions... but emotions make my life so real, so vivid.
I was made to feel, not only think...
It's sad that I would rather feel something - anything - rather than be unemotional. I would rather be extremely lonely than feel nothing at all.
It annoys me to no end that I can't always feel emotional about God. I don't want to just read my Bible, I want to feel like doing something, feel inspired.
Without emotions, I feel so disconnected. I hate that.
Emotions connect me. I like that.
But here is what I learned today about emotions:
"Although it may be emotionally satisfying to say how much I miss you or to feel the pain of separation, if those feelings do not move us to action, then it is of little use — at least to others in need of love."*
Simply feeling is selfish. I have to do something with my feelings.
I am loved and I love, but thinking about love is pointless.
1 John 4:19 says, "We love because he first loved us." It is only because God loved us that we have the ability to love others at all.
God gives us love so that we can love others. God gives me emotions so that I can love others.
Whenever I next miss you, I am going to put that love into action.
Maybe I will write you an email, or maybe I will pray for you, or maybe I will invest in somebody else who needs love... but at any rate I've had enough of empty, selfish emotions.
It's time for fulfilling, selfless love.
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
- 1 John 3:18
*I edited this quote from an article by Hugh LaFollette and Larry May which Art quoted in her persuasive. The actual quote goes "Although it may be intellectually satisfying to determine whether children have a right to be fed or whether we have an obligation to assist them, if those arguments do not move us to action, then it is of little use — at least to the children in need."